first n foremost ina want to write in english la. once in a while kan. today i felt quite sad. i don't know y but i juz feel like dat. hmm today i went for biochem lab n i feel like so stupid. becoz i don't know how to answer the lectrr question. i cannot answer the principal needed. when the lctrr asked i juz said like "i don't know sir,becoz the other lctrr talked too fast n i can't catch up what she said." huh what a sigh~
even when i entered anatomy lecture i can't really follow the class. i know it must be my mistake since i don't read back what the lctrr taught yesterday. then i went for dissection class. we have dissection every monday, tuesday n wednesday. but for wednesday we have histology class. so for today we have to stay in dissection hall near 2 hours n breath in formalin. i've to stay near to d window to prevent me from too dizzy. i juz don't have mood to read the cunninghum book (manual for dissection). so i juz sat n kept quiet since we didn't start yet our dissection class.
i felt bored n lonely. i don't know y may b bcoz i don't talk.
one more thing, soo my 'malaysianmate' try to ask question about nerves. she asked a 'tempe' girl n i followed her. u know what. dis tempe girl is like so brilliant. she can speak fluently english n she can explain about it deeply. i'm so envy with her. bcoz she's so young! only 18 and she seems like knew everything. so what should i do now? i think i need a booster. i'm so relax now like nothing happen. i'm supposed to really study not playing2 anymore.
i'm missing all my friends in ktt. so miss. dat i can cry when i remember them. i missed to laugh wif them, crying wif them, chit chat wif them, eat n went for shopping together. we were separate now bcoz of we're in different u. so i've to adapt wif new friends. try to accept watever my new friends behaviour n have a tight bond together. try to jump up obstacle in front together. i hope so. i hope i can do it.